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Wednesday, May 31, 2006
addicted

god i need caramel machiato.

gambling

heran.
everyone seems so stressed out because of the coming business assessment task 4 that requires us to create a business plan template and present it to the whole class next week.
this assessment task is actually just a headstart for our last business assessment for this year, which is to create a FULL template, with minimum 20 pages.

but actually, i found this assessment fun.
dunno why.
i just really enjoy myself composing my business plan from scratch.
for the first time in year 11, i actually really put a lot of effort in doing this assessment.

i made the ad,
the brochure,
the name,
every tiny details,
everything,
i made everything with so much passion that it exceeds the limit given.
so not me dont you think.
to do extra work?
lol.

the only thing im anxious about
is the fact that we have to present it infront of the class for 8 whole minutes.
dag dig dug.

however, i love my business plan.
treats, where we put the word sweet and health in the same sentence.



GOD I LOVE ART.

Tuesday, May 30, 2006
heartache

my heart beats fast.

you made me laugh when nobody's speaking.
you made me laugh when you're not with me.
you made me laugh by telling jokes
you made me laugh by incidents.

my heart beats slower.

you made me appreciate my life
but in the same time
you made me hate it.

i know
i just knew.

sometimes,
something that you want the most
might come
at last.

and something the last thing you want to happen
might just begun.

thank you,
for the ups and the downs that you brought me.

follow the lights

i've started going to tuition to keep up with my maths.
it started a month ago.
but till now,
nothing.
i still got burning marks.
and it burned me.
so deep.
damn it.
why cant i at least get above 5?
it's not the mark that im concerned with, actually.
it's my future.
what will it look like
in my college application
if the highest maths mark i got is below 5?
god.
help me.

Monday, May 29, 2006


this is my most original and greatest ad to this point of time. this is my first 100% hand made ad without any intervention from others. i did it for my business assessment, where we should develop a business plan. actually, i did this one just for fun. got plenty of ideas running thorugh my vein =p. lol. i love adobe.just.. love it. it is a place where i can just.. be me. expand my creativity, no matter how high it is.  Posted by Picasa

Thursday, May 25, 2006
heaven

heaven to me is this. a shelf full of books. so many choices that you dont know where to start. went to 17th Kemang Rd this afternoon. it was heaven. i spent at least 3 hrs there, searching browsing reading and looking. so many art design and photography books! learnt a lot there.

too bad they ran out of John Steibeck's books, especially East of Eden. sigh. i've been searching all over town for that peculiar book. i really want to read it. well, at least i didnt come home empty handed. i bought a pulitzer-winner-novel, Martin Dressler, the tale of an American dreamer by Steven Millhauser, and a copy of Fortune magazine.

last but not least, following yesterday's catastrophe, today was pretty nice. and peaceful too. there's something about QB World Kemang that makes you wanna stay throughout the day, just sit back, enjoy the music, read something, and voila. heaven.



literature fiction section at QB World Book Kemang Posted by Picasa



audi the maling. lol. this picture surely can make a person laugh like hell. hahaha. look at her expression. lol. lol. lol. lol. this a valid and honest evidence of audi's habit, kleptomania. lol lol lol lol. Posted by Picasa

Wednesday, May 24, 2006


oldies. haha. took this one also this afternoon. and adobed it just now as well. the little girl =p in the middle is our homeroom teacher as well as our bahasa teacher. her name is ms christina but we made her a special name, milu. starnds for miss lucu. see how cute she is? she looks like MY little sister. lol. eiather way, we heard that mr mark roberts is resigning out from IPEKA Christian Bilingual School. spicy details coming.  Posted by Picasa



took this picture this afternoon, and edited it just now. i really love this picture, seeing the background is our dearest school, IPEKA Christian Bilingual School. i was just wondering, do you noticed that i often put a stamp on my adobe creations, just like this one? the square thingy on the bottom. because until now, only mr marcelo asked me what it meant. yes, him, of all people. good observant =p. this is audi denica and pian's picture of friendship. lol.  Posted by Picasa

Monday, May 22, 2006


body shop's latest brilliant invention, CASSIS ROSE, which is also my new scent. the bottle is really cute, sexy, feminine, and glamour, just like the scent. one word i use to describe it: flirtatious. lovin it.  Posted by Picasa

Sunday, May 21, 2006


made this yesterday. almond puding in heavy syrup. it tastes, smells and looks fantastic. sweet, cold, fresh, soft, and slippery in your tongue, so sweet and tender, yet hard and alluring.  Posted by Picasa

Friday, May 19, 2006


tonight we had an evening watching the davinci code with my whole class- 11.2. we had ablast. eventhough "some" screams to me when Silas the albino guy jumped to get Langdon down which got the atention of the whole studio, it was a really great movie. i really love the way the director plays with the focus. it's great. too bad there's so many scenes cut from the novel. but it;s on satisfactory level =]. Paul Betany who played Silas was REALLY moving. i cried when he died. too bad. he was really cute. Posted by Picasa

Thursday, May 18, 2006
guilt

mr mark robert didnt showed up. he was absent. some said he was sick. guilt guilt guilt oh guilt.

Wednesday, May 17, 2006
a wednesday fiasco

it's wednesday, the day i've waited for every week.
yep, it's not friday that i longed to come, but wednesday.
why?
because it's PE (Physical Education) day.
and somehow, the only day in which i can wake up after 8 and freely skip 1 period of my first period of the day, English with Mr Mark Roberts because he, of all teachers, dont give a damn whether you're there or not.
good.
and so, today, like i always did before, i arrived late 15minutes, just on time when everyone's leaving 11.2 for Computer Lab 1 to do some research for our English Assesment Task 3.
however, when i step into my beloved 11.2, i met Angelia, Audi, and Vania, who were talking while waiting for Angelia to finish her breakfast.
and like any good friends will, i stayed behind with them, talking and laughing like usual, for like 10 to 15 minutes.
i was on the phone with my dad's secretary when Vania shrieked.

"si mark dateng!!"

and next, chaos.
my first respond was just continue sweetly to sit there on the table, waiting for him to catch us all, but that's far from what happened.
because Audi and Vania started running so fast into the girls' bathroom next to 11.1
leaving me and Angelia in total panic.
should we run after them or what?
we knew that it's too late for us to run after them
and so we stayed, hiding behind the door, silently laughing like mad.
after 2 minutes that feels like a year, we peeked slowly from the gap of the door and the wall, and we saw blue eyes.
Mr Mark Robert's blue eyes.
we was so shocked that i slammed the door before his face, which is unfortunately useless, for he was blocking the door with his hands.
i know at this moment we should go out and pretend to cry or something that (hopefully) will lessen his anger.
but we dont.
instead, we cant hold ourselves, giving ourselves up to the force that tickle our stomach from our first second hiding.
and he smiled.

"sir, i was late, sorry," i said.

then, i pulled Angel along to go up to the computer lab, when we heard this:

"wait. stay here you are. dont go anywhere."

perplexed, we stood there, half laughing, and waited from him to speak.

"i saw 2 other girls running away from this class. where are they?"

i cant say a word. one, i was still laughing in the inside, and two, i wont give my friends in like that.
then Angel said: "udah lah, jujur aja deh mendingan. AUDI!! VANIA!! CEPET KELUAR!"
a minute later, Audi and Vania came out from the bathroom with Eveline, holding tissue and a pencil case, Audi wore her im-innocent look which made me want to laugh more.

"bathroom sir. bathroom," said Audi while waving the tissue in her palm, trying to make Mr Mark understand that she WAS from the bathroom, no lies.
then i look left to see Mr Mark, and i was afraid for he just stood there, with a smile on his face.

"di, jujur aj ya semuanya. jangan bohong." i and Angel was threatening them to be honest, because something tells me to do it, i dont know what, that that is the right thing to do. the least.

"you guys just... do whatever you like.". with this, he left us alone, tired with our rebellious acts.

and we, well, i, was dumbstruck. dammit. we really done it this time. i silently thought in my head.
then we entered the classroom once again, acting as if it's HIS fault that we cant go to the computer lab, with guilt slowly eating us slowly from the inside.
5 minutes later, guilt won.
we cant stand it anymore.
then we decided that we should apologize to him, considering that it IS our fault from the beginning.
walking up, we share our caught-by-mark-robert-experience, and we laugh at ALL verses like hell. Audi was literaly falling onto the ground in laughter, and we were struggling not to cry, and hopelessly stop our laughter which is killing our stomaches (you know how painful it is right? the more you laugh, the more hurt your stomach will be.)
realizing that we had enough, we wiped our laughter-tears and started to walk up again to reach computer lab and get this over with.

unfortuntely, it was not as easy as you say it,
for we were nervous and still cant stop the force that made us laugh again infront of the computer lab, when the door was pushed open from the inside, and we thought that it's him!
well, half of it was right, but the "who" part is wrong.
the culprit that made us went frozen for that moment is, in fact, Garry Ceban and Kevin.
damn.
well, to make the story short, Audi went in, after minutes of persuading each other to start come in and apologize.
but he rejected us.
without hearing our apology.
he waved his hand, commanding us to go the library, in other words, to get out of his sight.
and so we obeyed.
we went to library, laughing and reading and laughing until break time on 9:30.
during break time, we met again, and decided that we will spend the next 40 minutes (another English period as we have double period English on Wednesday) in the library, and went to apologize on lunch time when he alrady cooled down a little.
however, our generous effort to apologize was once again rejected.
he waved his hand again, murmuring something while seeping his mug, ordering us to go out from the teacher's room.
well, at least we tried.
we were angry at the thought of him send us away like that and decided that that's that.
we wont bother anymore.
have it his way.

this case is not solved yet, let's just see his reaction tomorrow.
this day, however, will be something that we all will remember and laugh about in our old days, telling out grandchildren that their grandmother was once rebels, especially in English classes.


Tuesday, May 16, 2006


i love my life. i know this statement is almost impossible to be heard maybe 1 year ago. but now i love every single tiniest bits details about it. from my friends, my teachers (yes, some of them are simply amazing), and most of all, my family. eversince i moved, these days are the first times i actually set foot in my garden and actually look around, searching for another terrific object i can freeze with my digital camera. last, but not least, when im tired of walking around, i just sat there on my pool and look at my shots. the feeling is amazing, really. while your feet is being swayed back and forth by the water, light breeze gently stroke your hair and face, leaving you with total peace and satisfaction of looking at your shots. this is my life.
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Monday, May 15, 2006

im desperately in love with it.
cant take my eyes off it.
its just simply...
...it.
it's love at first sight, really.
it cost Rp. 7,100,000,-, WITH lens.
im saving for it right now.
im sorry my beloved starbucks
but my budget forced me to cut you.
ihiks..
the greatest sacrifice ever...
i'll miss you teribly...
ah..
i miss you even now..
what will i do without you?
those nights i'll spend alone...
ah..
so much one has to sacrifice for another..
until now, my eos350D fund is Rp. 2,000,000,-
that means that im still short of Rp. 5,100,000,-
uah..
okayokay.
think positive!
once i own it...
...
....
...



canon eos 350D Posted by Picasa

ignorance

have you ever seen, heard, or read a war story?
imagine this
it's saturday night, and you're sitting back, lazily switching the channel to find something nice to accompany your night
press 1. gossip.
another heir got caught on drugs.
press 2. world news.
china's comment on Iran's nuclear power plant.
press 3. hbo saturday night, war film.
hey, this is interesting, you thought.
so you stop switching and continue to watch it, trying to understand the story
an hour and half later, the end comes.
while the screen is showing the film's cast, crew, soundtartck and the storyboard, you started to wonder.

"wow. this is a cool movie. what a war. great actors. great soundeffect, cute captain!"

and tomorrow you forgot all about it.
that's the problem with us all.
we tend to think, to believe, that war don't exist in our world.
it just simply another award winning film made by some posh hollywood directors
do you realize
that this is war.
the world is full with war.
some are brave enough to take action,
like US did with Iraq.
eventhough it is bad
it is better than those who attack people behind their backs.
open your eyes.
the war is happening.
now.

Sunday, May 14, 2006


happy mother' day, mom. thanks for everything and sorry i've made you dissapointed in me occassionally. love you always. by the way, this flower is one of mom's collection in our garden. shot it yesterday. nice eh? the actual color is blue, but i adobed it just now. Posted by Picasa

Saturday, May 13, 2006

"clever girl!"
-Mr Mark Roberts, English yr 11

im in love

i went to starbucks alone this evening.
tried new bev, caramel machiato.
lovin it.
and surprise surprise..
nadia and josepin was there
and
also mr jamie.
after i claimed my hot beverage
he looked at me with those bluish brownish eye
intensely.
and my heart stopped.
he was so..
...
undescribeable with words.
then i sat in nadia and josepin's seat
but nadia was so mean
hahaa.
she said that im not invited to sit there
grrr.
and so i moved
behind their seat sih
no significant difference
except that i can finally get some peace
and continue reading the novel i brought with me to accompany my starbucks evening.
The Broker by John Grisham.
and soon i was carried into the (fictional?) world of Joel Backman
when nadia and josephine brought me back to reality by saying that they're leaving.
so after waving to them,
my eternal love moved to their former place
and i continued my journey into John Grisham's words
until i realized that it's time for me to leave
when i stand up
...
oh my god.
it turns out that mr jamie my love had sat right behind me all that time
i mean..
his head and my head was like 1cm apart.
gee i dont know what happened but then he realized that the girl who used to sit behind him had stood up
and he looked at me again
and i know
im in love.


hahaha.

further info: mr jamie is an english teacher in EF Meruya.

Friday, May 12, 2006


PPGs [Perempuans Penggemar Gosips] on the move. memoirs of my irthday. cemplang cemplung. lol. left to right : AUDI, JOSEPHINE, PAULINA, NADIA, DENICA, MARISSA. <3 Posted by Picasa

Thursday, May 11, 2006
the karma test - how much do i have?

Denica, in the last year you've earned 678 karma points

You've earned these points by doing good things, therefore allowing good things to circle back to you. There are 6 different ways people earn karma, and by looking at your responses to this test, we can tell that your caring nature is earning you the most karma.You seem to be one of those people who has an uncanny ability to anticipate and meet the needs of others around you. This nurturing quality has helped you earn your karma up to this point. Your thoughtfulness strengthens your current relationships, and suggests that such kindnesses will be repaid to you some time in the future. Through your concerted efforts to express how much you care, you generate good karma for yourself and the universe.

what's your best quality test

Denica, your best quality shines through in how Creative you are

The fact that you're an inventive and creative person who usually has an abundance of imagination and ideas really draws people to you! But that's not the only thing. Your answers on the test indicate you're a smart person who is more able to understand complex concepts than many other people are. You are an independent person who is usually able to handle things in a self-sufficient manner, too.In all, there are 15 qualities that help define you when you're at your best. Those are the traits potential employers, friends, and partners look for in you. What makes you unique is your particular distribution of those 15 qualities.We've found that your particular combination of qualities is rare — only 1 in 10,000 people share the same general mix of traits. Those are great odds if you're trying to show a potential employer, colleague, friend, or date why you're exactly the right person for them.

time.

eversince the contest on saturday took place
regret has been following me
wherever i go
or whatever i do
just..
how can i be so damn ignorant?
damn it.
it really hurts you know
to lose something because you didnt do your best
you lost
and regret is all you have left
time never stops
it keeps on ticking
ticking
and ticking
its up to us now
to fill our lives with regret
or with satisfaction?
because one time passed, it wont cvome back
no matter how hard you tried.
live your life to the fullest,
do the best in everything.
good luck.

dirty hands

"most people prefer not to get involved in the country's diplomatic because they knew that once they're in, their hands will be dirty like ashes."
- Mr Jacob Donald Tan, Economics B

Wednesday, May 10, 2006
university

they gave us an university form today.
we are given 2 questions
where will you go
and what will you take
mine reads:
SMU, Erasmus, UPH.
Business Management, Accounting and Finance, Tourism and Hospitality.
where should i go?
what should i take?
so many choices
so many appeals
so little me.

Tuesday, May 09, 2006

Denica, you are Right-brained

Most right-brained people like you are flexible in many realms of their lives. Whether picking up on the nuances of musical concerto, appreciating the subtle details in a work of art, or seeing the world from a different perspective, right-brained people are creative, imaginative, and attuned to their surroundings. People probably see your thinking process as boundless, and that might translate to your physical surroundings as well. Some people think of you as messier than others. It's not that you're disorganized, it's just that you might use different systems to organize (by theme, by subject, by color). Straight alphabetization and rigidly ordered folders are not typical of right-brained behavior. You are also more intuitive than many. When it comes to reading literature, you probably prefer creative writing or fiction over nonfiction. And when it comes to doing math, you might find you enjoy geometry more than other forms like algebra.


Denica, you're smartest when it comes to linguistic intelligence

Being linguistically intelligent means that you have a knack for using words and language. As a result, you've probably noticed that you have a greater gift for expressing yourself than most people around you. In fact, you might be known in your circle of friends as something of a wordsmith. Whether writing or speaking, you're the type to get your point across with both precision and flair. At times, this can make you a very persuasive communicator. By choosing the right words at the right time, you can clearly express your ideas, thoughts, and feelings to others. This can be a crucial skill in both your professional and personal life.

Sunday, May 07, 2006


klavic djuban. Posted by Picasa

another sunday in jakarta

hai blogie.
what a sunday, im really really reaaally bored out of my skull.
woke up at 11.
watch tv till 0200.
lunch with family till 0230.
play comp till 0330
increase my creativity by playing clay till 0430 :P
and here i am now.
once again
infront of the computer
stressed out.
how the hell should i do to add new fonts into my computer?
hell.
it's hell.
im in total agony.
im falling into the abyss.
so many homeworks
so many tests
so many things to do
so little time

Monday, May 01, 2006


went to gni in medan merdeka timur yesterday to see klavdij zluban's photography. it was really nice. he sure know how to use his camera well. he's like.. so young! and yet o talented. love his works. so simple and yet complicated. Posted by Picasa

...

just finished talking to mr jacob.
i read a comic strip on the wall magazine infront of the library about..well, heaven and hell, the judgment day. he explained a lot to me. i told him about my doubts about my faith, and he calmly explained to me. really, he's the best teacher i ever had.
please dont leave, mr jacob..
i'll miss you awfully lot.
i hope that everything you taught me will make me a better person.
thank you. for everything.

cape bosan bete malas batuk

im dying of boredom.
im in currently located in computer lab 1 and im literally don't have any idea on what to do now. everything seems so blurred and i dont know what else to do except to write on this blog.
sr marcello was very mean. he literally STRANGLED me with the not-working mouse's cord. huah. so typical computer teacher. like sdd like computer. both likes to violate their innocent students who are craving for education but they the only thing they got is just humiliation and torture.
huahh. i really really have no idea on microsoft excel. i mean.. what the hell is a string? like hell i know.
and i GOT DETENTION for improper uniform. what the fuck lah. marching on 4th may 2006 at LUNCH TIME. what a wonderful way to dicipline my eating disorder. what a school, audi said that IPEKA is an "institut penguras tenaga dan keuangan anda'. count me in.
next month our school fee will rise from 2,850,000 to 3,500,000 with NO ADDITION IN SCHOOL PROPERTY. this school sucks. okok dadah. marcello jahat